Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Positivity Needed!

Despite my daily efforts for finding balance and  positivity, sometimes Life strikes you in the back.
Last week has been very tough.
On Monday I had to take my hubby to the E.R., because he woke up in a spin. He could not make a clear speech and kept staring at the walls...
The doctors diagnosed a sort of depression caused by anxiety and stress (it's not the first time that this happens, but this time it was worse).
Hubby hasn't been working for months. Now he has some small jobs, but he feels very useless and depressed... 
I took him to the E.R. because I wanted to be sure that he hadn't anything in his brain. The CAT revealed nothing... phew...
He is now taking some pills and feeling better. I hope he is going to be good for August, because I have to leave for Spain for three weeks. I'm still in doubt wether to go or not.....

Sorry for this outburst, but I need to let off steam. :)

So, last week we have been very quiet at home, watching movies. And I have made some new sketches on my Moleskine.

Watercolors and ink.

Collage.

Watercolor and ink.

Zentangle page using HUGGINS variations.

Have a great week!!

29 comments:

  1. You don't ever have to apologise for being upset at something like this! I know exactly what you are feeling. Hubby has had a few stressful years in and out of work. I had to make him quit a well paid job knowing it would mean difficulties for us when I discovered he had been put on Valium by his GP. Am am certain the future will bring you both happiness. ...and you must continue with your plans to go to Spain. Your husband would surely feel more guilty if he thought you had cancelled because of him. Try finding a project for him to concentrate on while your away. Hugs XXX

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    1. Thank you, Gina. I hope that this Italian crisis is coming to an end and that he can find a job soon. I don't like to see him sad and on pills...

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  2. PS Your art is gorgeous :D XXX

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  3. Fantastic Art!!! We all have the need to rant at some point...the need to get it out must be dealt with so we can go on and heal. I agree with Gina...canceling your trip will probably make him feel worse... but you know what's best for the two of you and I know you'll make the right choice. Thinking of you in my daily prayers and meditations.

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  4. Loving your artwork, am sure you will come to the right decision for both of you, Annette x

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  5. I am relieved that your hubby is in good hands. Lets hope he has no more spells. I am sending good thoughts and blessings for you both.

    Your artwork is awesome. I've told you before that your lines are amazingly smooth.

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    1. Thank you, Linda! He's getting better. :(

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  6. My friend, I am sending a big hug and healing prayers to your hubby! Everything will turn around! You are both great people! I agree with Gina, you must go to Spain! Don't cancel! I love your new art!!! Totally amazing!! xoxoxoxo

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    1. Thanks, dear. Next week I'll decide wether to go or not. :)

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  7. ...biggest hugs to thee and thine ~ may the days ahead become serene for thee both ~ blessed be...(O:

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  8. Oh you poor thing, don't apologise for putting down 'real life' on your blog, I'm hoping that things are improving and that your planned trip can go ahead.

    Biggest hugs

    PS Love your artwork!

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  9. stress is the worst, hope your husband gets some relief, when we are stressed we take a lavender sachet and squeeze it like a worry ball, it does help, your art is wonderful, beautiful details and soft colors. a trip to spain would be just the thing I think, hope you do go

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    1. The lavender sachet is a good idea. Thank you, Linda, for your words. :)

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  10. Ciao Simona, mi dispiace moltissimo e vivendo in Italia so cosa state passando, cosa stiamo passando come Paese. L'ottimismo tutto italiano si sta un po spegnendo ovunque ma quel briciolo che rimane ci fa pensare che le cose andranno meglio. Auguri di cuore per tutto a tuo marito e a te, so come la depressione possa davvero distruggere tutto ma tenete duro ne usciremo!
    Un abbraccio Barbara

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    1. Grazie, Barbara! Mio marito sta un po' meglio. Cerchiamo di essere positivi. Speriamo che presto le cose cambino in meglio! :))

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  11. I'm sorry to hear about your husband's illness. It must be an anxious time for you both. I can totally understand how depression can set in when people are out of full time work. I'm sending you positive thoughts and hope that things improve for you both soon. Your illustrations are beautiful - you are such a fabulous zentangler!

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  12. This is the best place to vent where you have a support network!! So sorry about hubby I'm sure it was very scary...thinking stroke or something of that nature!! Don't compromise your own life too much, sad to say I did and now that I'm older would recommend not to! But you will do what your heart tells you....Beautiful artwork...the sun looks so vulnerable!!

    Hugs Giggles

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  13. I'm so glad you felt comfortable enough to vent with us here in blogland. It's such a great support team of multi talented people and we all go thru some times when we need to vent, and to receive some encouraging words. I'm sorry for what you and hubby are going thru-we 've been thru some stressful job loss times too. Keep the faith, knowing it will all work out.I didn't know anxiety and stress could cause such stroke-like symptoms. Good to know as my Mom has gone thru similar issues a few times.
    Your doodles and watercolor art are amazing Simona!! Take care love.

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  14. Oh, sometimes life can give us lemons... ALL of us. Just know you are never alone! I always chase the blues away with art!
    Stopping in from PPF to say hello...
    have an artful weekend!
    Renee xoxo
    http://www.fussitup.blogspot.com/2013/07/dreaming-and-paint-party-friday.html

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  15. I'm so sorry to hear about your husbands illness, I hope he will get better soon! Hugs! <3 Your doodles are fabulous! Love the sharp, clear lines! <3

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  16. Surely you need to relieve yourself from your fear and worries. We all need that at times! Hope your husband will feel better and you too!

    You did some wonderful drawings/paintings in your journal!
    Happy PPF
    Ilona xx

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  17. We have (and still do) deal with depression and anxiety in my home. I know how devastating it is and how it can affect you physically. I am praying for some peace for both of you. Thank goodness you have your art - I know that creating puts me in a peaceful place when all around seems to be falling apart.

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  18. Hi Simona, I hope things are improving. I'm just stopping by to say how delightful your blog is. Thanks so much for sharing. I have recently found your blog and am now following you, and will visit often. Please stop by my blog and perhaps you would like to follow me also. Have a wonderful day. Hugs, Chris
    http://chelencarter-retiredandlovingit.blogspot.ca/

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  19. Hello. This is first time Im visiting your blog. Your art is so beautiful and whimsical. I really like the bird and pattern with threads going trough very clever and I like the clear lines. Im sorry to hear about your husband I hope he'll get better.. lots of love and light
    and inspiration Niina

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